I agonized over choosing my major. I searched job listings for my perfect job. My friends laughed because I switched careers so often. Yet, I always felt with certainty, deep in my gut, that I would find what I was meant to do.
Some jobs I loved. Some I tolerated. And some that felt like they were sucking the soul right out of me. But, even I knew at the time that they were all important steps for me. I’ll always be grateful for the great friendships I made and the things I learned.
Even so, I knew there was more. I’d wander home from the train station and wonder why I was here on earth sitting inside an air conditioned office when the world was so warm and sunny.
Through it all, I desperately wanted to be a mother and I was fearful and hopeless when it didn’t happen right away. But deep down – some days really deep – I trusted my time would come.
It did and it blew my mind. It still does.
I left my job and my friends and stayed at home, but it’s hard with one income and we felt pressure. So, I went back to a ‘perfect on paper’, part-time job in the air conditioned building in Boston. I craved being home but I didn’t know a way out. This was not what I wanted and I felt crushed with the weight of it.
Nobody works for the love of it. People work because they have to! Work is called work for a reason.
I battled the negative thoughts, because I was sure…there was more, and I would find it.
I looked everywhere. I constantly focused on things I loved that were innately part of me: fitness, nutrition, health. I had big dreams and but I had no idea how to make them happen.
One afternoon, after a bad morning at work, the universe finally showed up and revealed her stuff. It came in the form of an email from a friend sharing her health coaching training program. As I read, every part of me said yes. I knew in my heart that this was it. Like, really it. Not even a week later, I had enrolled at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition.
Since that day in 2010, everything has come together for me. Today, I get to be a stay-at-home mom for my girls and I also get to carve out a career that feels like a natural extension of me. I set my own hours and I get to work from home. It’s just what I wanted.
My life and my soul feel aligned.
Has it been all easy? I can literally hear my husband snort laughing right now. There have still been many tears, stress and intense fear. Just because you’re following your path doesn’t mean it’s easy. But it still feels right, every single day.
When you’re not on the right path for yourself, you can feel it in every cell in your body. That sickly fear, that bottomless pit in your stomach, the anxiety. Your body will wave a ton of red flags trying to tell you. Maybe in the form of depression, weight gain or digestion issues. Or maybe it’s the effort you have to put in just to survive your day. Or it’s that awful feeling when you fall into bed that you just have to get up and do it all over again tomorrow.
I didn’t do anything miraculous to end up where I am today. And you don’t have to either.
Do you love to take photographs? Take them. Do you love to sing? Then sing. Do you love your work? Work hard. Do you love to have balance in your life? Then work towards that.
Live a life that aligns with your soul. Move there in gallops or take baby steps. It doesn’t matter, just listen to yourself. Take a step. Your life will respond.
If your life is giving you red flags, if you feel like there’s more out there for you. If you want to take a step, then join me and a community of amazing women who are on a journey to design a beautiful life.
We’ll be taking steps to live healthier, happier and better right now. We’ll be setting the foundations that will give you the energy, inspiration and confidence to move toward your path.
We begin on May 21st. It’s easy to sign up. Let that be your first step.