For goodness sake, I check Facebook first thing in the morning. Nobody needs to do that. Sitting with stillness, being present, not forcing things. I’m working on it and my clients are too.
Roll with the energy…. Just be in it. We’ll move on after.
That’s what my coaches said to me last week. Often, I have a hard time slowing down. I have a hard time when I don’t have ten simultaneous things to focus on. I used to fill every single second of down time I had by running out to do errands. Something, anything. I rarely sat on my coach and did nothing. And when I did, I felt so guilty. I’m working on slowing down and giving my full energy to one thing at a time.
Breathe in, breathe out. When you feel your thoughts wondering, find your breath.
This weekend, I went on the most amazing yoga retreat. It was my first time away from the kids and I was craving the downtime, the quiet and the yoga of course. We stayed at the most beautiful retreat center in Vermont and the property was surrounded by the mountains and filled with beautiful trees, flowers and ponds. It was the perfect setting for the ultimate relaxing.
I was so excited for the free time on the schedule. It was a gorgeous day and we went on a long walk and I read some magazines by the pond.
Then, I got stuck.
What should I do? What are we doing next? I should do something productive right now. Maybe I’ll write my next blog post.
But it wasn’t coming to me. They never do when I try to force them. And I often try to force them because it’s easier to follow a schedule. I could always recite some bland facts or repeat someone else’s wisdom, but my goal is to be real.
Go outside and walk the property for 20 minutes. Notice what you’re drawn to. Notice what comes up.
We did a walking meditation as part of the weekend. It’s something I’ve never done before and I wasn’t sure what it would be like. As I walked and looked up at the gorgeous Vermont mountains and the idyllic pond on the property and the huge, endless, beautifully cloudy sky right before sunset, I felt myself letting go. Finally.
I was drawn to an almost dead milkweek plant. I noticed it still had a few feathers in it and I pulled them out one by one and just watched them float away in the wind. I loved how effortless it looked and how they just flowed with the wind.
Completely present. Not forcing. In the flow. Breathe in, breathe out.
I’m working on it.